Scorpio Risen

I've flown the nest...

2007-05-20T21:01:00.001Z

...all those Wordpress blogs just looked so shiny and pretty, I couldn't resist!
So, here I am...

How exciting!!!

Unfreakinbelievable

2007-05-17T19:51:00.000Z

'Rape' girl grateful for sex, says lawyer

I don't really have time to blog much about this, it pretty much speaks for itself.

By the way...

2007-05-08T17:50:00.000Z

Just some recent link-y goodness...

Some good news, and a couple of fingers up to the BNP, for anti-fac circles...

Looky! I'm quoted in an article by Eve Menezes Cunningham article in Natural Health.

I liked this post from Lonergrrl about "Knocking down the wall between “man topics” and women’s voices"; I thought it was intelligent and thought-provoking.

I've literally just discovered a new blog - "Me and My Army" (note to self: linky-link!) - and this particular post caught my eye. Anti-feminist bingo, fun with trolls ;)

The most recent edition of Carnival of Feminists.

And now, I most probably really should get back to doing some revision...

Ach nein!!!

2007-05-08T17:07:00.000Z

GERMAN ORAL...
TOMORROW!!!

Am a tad bit screwed, to be honest...

Aaaaaaaand...I'm going on study leave on Friday...

First history paper on Monday (Unit 3 - Life in an Authoritarian Regime: Nazi Germany. i.e. Hitler's domestic policies)

Sociology methodology paper on Tuesday.

Critical Thinking paper on the 18th.

On 22nd - mum's birthday - I have 6 hours of exams, one hour break. Yes. 3 hours of English Language and 3 more hours of sodding German (Listening, reading, writing and all that shit).

23rd - I have my sociology papers on mass media and education.

Then, thankfully, a long break (half term) in which to revise for my last two papers: 6th June, History Unit 1 (Rise of Nazis, 1918-1933) and my Mussolini paper retake.

I'm really, really, really, really concerned about my History papers, particularly considering my horrific freakout during my January paper (hence the retake), and my German (although I've largely resigned myself to failure in that respect), certain aspects of my English Language (however, already having bagged an A in my coursework unit, has given me some confidence), because the first question on the first paper is absolute bollocks, and then there are areas of the second paper, which involve the theories and concepts which I get a bit muddled up with. Sociology, I've largely found a breeze, but I don't want to get complacent, besides I need to brush up on my methodology, and hammer home the names of the sociologists involved with representations, particularly those of age. And, also, interpretivist theories on education. Ooo, and also ethnicity and education, I think I was in Hamburg during those lessons y'see. However, hopefully, I should be OK with any question on gender, especially since I have a considerably large background knowledge on the subject, being a feminist and whatnot.

The thing is, I'm really, really shit at revising. I just don't have enough self-discipline. I'm too scared. It's ridiculous. It really is. I promised myself after my January history fiasco that I would revise more, but I just never seem to get round to it.

However, on the positive, if my shitty performance in January earned me a high C, then maybe, if conditions are slightly better for me, the results won't be that bad...

Body and beauty survey thang

2007-05-07T12:49:00.000Z

This survey is from Newt in a Teacup:

""Inspired by a comment or two in a previous post I’ve decided that it would be a great idea to compare our experiences in an honest, straightforward way. I’m not quite sure what the best way to start a discussion is so I’ve set up a few survey-style questions.

One thing I’ve noticed, especially from personal experience, is that it’s very hard to talk to someone else, a friend or family member for instance, who does have really bad body image/ health issues to do with body image. And it’s pretty clear that all of us will most probably meet at least someone with those issues; we can’t avoid it.

So let’s start talking to each other at least.

Copy and paste the questionnaire to your own blog, fill out what you want to fill out, and link it back here in the comments. If you don’t have a blog just do it straight into a comment.

Please do not refer to just yourself but to your friends and family as well - i.e. the environment you live in, or anything else you want to share. Add or remove questions if you want!

Remember this is a loose questionnaire, intended to start an honest discussion not solve the worlds problems."

Name: Amy

Age: 17

Height: 5'3 or something like that. I'm short.

Weight: 11stone.

Do you consider yourself attractive?: My self esteem has never been so good as it is now. So yeh, I do.

Do others consider you attractive?: Some do, and I'm pretty sure some don't.

What is your biggest insecurity and why? Used to be my nose. Sometimes, I get a bit insecure about my eyebrows, but for the most part, I've given up caring.

Have you/Would you consider using plastic surgery? Why or why not?: I wouldn't consider plastic surgery for cosmetic reasons. I may consider reconstructive surgery if I was ever in the position to do so. The thing is, on a personal level at least, I love myself the way I am, I love my imperfections - why would I want to change myself physically? It's my body, my face, it's me.

What is your relationship with make-up? I've blogged briefly on this. (Too lazy, and have a bit of a headache at the moment, to repeat myself.)

How much money do you/think is reasonable to spend on your appearance?: I have no idea. I rarely have money, and when I do it tends to go on coffee, food, and CDs.

What is your experience of dieting?: LOL. My "diets" tend to go like this: "I'm going on a diet NOW!". Ten minutes later, I'm eating. I don't have the discipline, or even the motivation (other than parental pressure, but they can get stuffed), to go on a diet. I can't be fucked with it. I did start cutting down on snacks, and going on the treadmill earlier this year, lost a bit of weight, but that was because I don't want to be unhealthy. I'm pretty convinced I'm going to be a diabetic by the time I'm 50, the amount of sugar I have.

Have you/ anyone you know tried any specific diet programs i.e. Lighter Life? How did that affect your health? your moods? your relationships?: "Lighter Life" - never heard of it! Nope, I haven't tried any specific diet programs personally. My nan and mum did the Atkins, and I think one or two girls at my old school did (they were probably 14/15, and really, even though I wasn't a particularly big fan of them, didn't need to go on a diet), and I know of one girl who is on this fucked up "diet pepsi" diet, where all you have is diet pepsi + one meal, and it was fucking advocated in a magazine. It's fucked up. This girl, I've known her years, we used to be really good friends, she's always been slim, she's gorgeous, she has no fucking need for it. She said she watched the programme on size zero to get "tips". !!!!!!

Do you have any experiences of eating disorders i.e. either yourself or someone you know?: Not me personally, a couple of friends have had anorexia, but I didn't know either of them at the time.

How did other people react to this; what was the fallout?: N/A.

Have you had negative experiences relating to your appearance and people’s reactions to it? Yes. For years I had terrible self-esteem and hated myself and my appearance. I don't really feel like going into too much detail about it at the moment though. Nobody has said anything negative about my appearance to my face at least, as far as I can remember. Except for the fact that my dad calls me fat, while my mum is more euphemistic. Meh.

What about positive reactions to your body? I do get compliments about my figure and appearance from friends, guys I see, random guys, whatever. I get some compliments about my make-up.

How has your body image and attitude changed over the years? Well, I used to hate my body and my facial appearance. I felt low about myself, and I had shite self-esteem, which made me feel pretty low. Now, I'm so comfortable with myself, I love the skin I'm in. I'm not conventionally perfect, but, fuck that. I'm me.

What do you love about your body? I like my eyes. I love the hair on my legs. I like my breasts, and my curves. But I do generally like my body as a whole.

What is your opinion on the media portrayal of women’s bodies? I hate how fucking one-dimensional it is, the lack of variety. I hate the fucking hypocrisy of the media for blasting modelling agencies for skinny models, and anorexia, yet at the same perpetuating the same dangerous beauty myths. It really pisses me off. We are constantly bombarded with these images and messages about women's bodies and how they "should be". Even if the message isn't explicitly expressing that message, the amount of times we see a certain ideal or image, that message gets pressed on us anyway.

What would you change about the way you/ your friends/ your family/ general people see their bodies? I like what Lizzie said: "That we are all seen as individuals, first. That the body isn't the most important thing about women. That looks come after all the other things in life, especially for women, who always appear to be judged first by their looks and everything else second. And also that we should accept other people's bodies and not be critical." I want people to feel genuinely comfortable and blessed in the skin they're in, irrespective of any "flaws".

What makes you feel beautiful? When I'm happy and carefree. I guess it makes me feel like I'm shining, almost.

and just for fun… Do you shave legs/pits/upper lip moustache?
I don't have an upper lip moustache. I don't shave my legs. I haven't shaved them in about 6 months! :D I shave my pits occasionally, especially when it's warm. I refuse to shave anything below the waist though.

Brief break from hibernation cont...

2007-04-29T16:57:00.001Z

...since it has come to my attention that there was a roadside protest staged by anti-abortion campaigners near where I live.

With pro-lifers/anti-abortionists, I just don't understand how they can't just keep this belief to themselves, and just exercise it by, well, not having abortions, if they are women.

Seriously.

If you're pro-life, fine; that's your opinion. Whatev.

But, I really don't agree with trying to restrict the rights of women to choose, and to have abortions. There's a myriad of reasons why women abort, and it is completely up to the individual woman whether she is to keep the baby or not. Babies have an astronomical affect upon a woman's life. Really, I don't think I can actually think of anything else with a bigger impact. And the impact is considerably larger on a woman's life than on a man's. Not just for the gestation period, or during the birth and any physical effects of the birth, but on areas of life such as career.

There was a picture in the local paper of one of the protesters with her placard, which read: "Abortion hurts women and kills children".

Firstly, if abortions were illegal, they wouldn't be stopped. And they would hurt more women even more so, possibly killing them. Secondly, killing children? Entirely subjective, and emotive use of language. Sure, some people do believe it is a child from conception, and if that's the way they see it, then yes, they would believe abortion is killing a child. In which case, they don't have to abort. However, medically, the bloody thing isn't even a foetus 'til around 20 weeks. So, I guess, when it comes to the so-called "killing children" issue, it all depends on whether you subscribe to a more Catholic-esque view, or a medical one.

I'm really pissed off that I'd found out about this protest after the event, because I wish I could've stood on the other side of the road holding up my own pro-choice placard.

P.S. To those who are pro-choice, you can show you are the pro-choice majority here.

PorNOgraphy

2007-04-28T23:11:00.000Z

T'other day I was minding my own business, attempting to do an exam practice for German in one of the school cafeterias in one of my frees, when my English teacher approached me, praising my English coursework. Apparently, it's been much the subject of discussion in the English department, and so they're gonna give it an A. Which is good.
But, how is that relevant here?
Well, t'is an anti-pornography speech. I'm very proud of this piece, and my English teacher said it was well-written (although at first, she was quite shocked by it, because I'm pretty damn blunt), but you may notice that the writing style is a tad bit different to how I ordinarily write on my posts.
I've been a bit wary about posting it, because I don't want to ruffle any feathers exactly, partly because with normal exam stress - and some other more personal shit - I really can't be arsed to deal with any bullshit.
There was originally a paragraph near the beginning about pro-pornography feminists, and my belief that, despite the anti/pro pornography divide, I believe that being anti or pro pornography doesn't make you a better feminist, it just makes you a different one. But my English teacher made me cut that paragraph out because it helped contribute to going over the word limit. The thing with pornography and feminism, is that it is such a cause of division and strife. It creates a huge divide; even if in every other respect Feminist A (anti pornography) and Feminist B (pro pornography) pretty much agree on feminist issues, the whole pornography thing can be a real bone of contention, and cause of hostility. Personally, I really hate that. The way I see it, is that by defining themselves as feminists, even pro-pornography feminists, they are saying they care, they give a crap about women. And so, sure, there are a few issues I won't agree with them on, but I still believe in a sense of sisterhood. Is that just naivety on my part? I've come to realise that in many cases, it is naivety, since it seems many anti and pro pornography feminists just cannot get past this core difference, despite other core similarities.

This piece, yeah it does reflect my views. After all, I am an anti-pornography feminist. However, I realise that this is something of a ...dodgy subject, given the divide. By no stretch of the imagination do I want to inflame any further divisions, or anything like that. Some of you may know, and I hope the previous paragraph highlighted this, that for all I care about about the issues I am concerned about, and for however strongly I believe in my views, I realise that others feel the same about theirs, but may have different perspectives or opinions, and that some of these issues are very close to people's hearts, and that, I do not encourage, and I do not personally reject other feminists whose views differ from mine. I accept these variations in feminism, and I embrace those who hold these different views, as I embrace those with similar views.You may also realise, as I have already mentioned, that the writing style of this piece is somewhat different to my usual style, this is largely because the audience of this piece is supposed to be anti-pornography (radical) feminists, whereas this blog - although, it was initially pretty damn self-indulgent, and I was convinced hardly anyone would read it but meh - has an undefined and flexible audience.

However, because I'm really bored, I think I will post it. Unfortunately, the few graphological features it did have - such as certain words being underlined, emboldened, or italicised, for emphasis - have largely been lost from copying it from my documents to pasting it on here. I've tried to put some of 'em back in, but I guess it's not really that big a deal.

PorNOgraphy

Pornography. It is an issue, which has been divisive and hotly debated amongst feminists for about 30 years. It is sad, but the divisions caused by the pornography debate between the second wave feminists of the seventies undermined their fight, this weakness helping to allow the reactionaries of the New Right and the MRAs to re-claim some ground, certainly some centre-ground, in the Backlash eighties. On the one-hand, there were the fiercely revolutionary anti-pornography Rad-Fems – Andrea Dworkin, Catherine Mackinnon, Susan Brownmiller and others – on the other, there were the so-called “sex-positive” feminists, whom we will go back to later. But that is about the extent of our history lesson today.

I am here today to talk to you about pornography. Maybe it’s because I’m young, maybe I’m naïve, maybe I’m idealistic, but pornography is something I would like well rid of; this would be no mean feat.
Let’s look at some cool, hard – economic – facts first: the porn industry produces about 11,000 new hardcore films a year, and is worth about $60billion worldwide annually. Estimates of the annual revenues of the pornography industry in the United States alone start at $10billion; that’s more than that of the Hollywood Box Office in 2003, which was $9.5 billion. It is fair enough to say that pornography is nothing small. It is also extensive. It’s not just dirty videos that you buy from a blacked out shop anymore; it’s on the Internet and in magazines too. Soft-core pornography is normalised. We’re conditioned to expect it. Seeing a scantily clad young woman grinding against a pole, or simulating orgasm is an everyday sight. It’s on before the watershed on television. On some music channels, that is all there is. “Girls Gone Wild” is a major franchise across the pond. A giant woman pouts seductively at you from a billboard, maybe naked, maybe in her underwear. There are no restrictions on the accessibility or visibility of “Lads Mags”; you walk into newsagents and you get tits right in your face (but it’s OK: the nipples are covered). Sex sells, baby. And the porn, music and film industries are large and profitable enough to justify that claim.

We already know that our culture is becoming more and more accepting of pornography. Soft-core pornography is now mainstream; even more explicit, hard-core pornography is becoming acceptable. It is an established fact that porn consumption is immensely common. The belief that “there is a porno-isation of the culture” is a legitimate one: “raunch culture” is accepted, that is, lascivious behaviour, and implanted, scantily-clad women – sometimes resembling strippers – are not uncommon and are no longer frowned upon as they once would have been. It’s not a sexualisation of our culture, because “raunch culture” is emulating pornography, and sex-workers such as strippers and lap-dancers.

So, porn is everywhere. But that doesn’t make it wrong by nature. But, I believe, we should be concerned about it, as feminists. Pornography is something, which alternatively breaks my heart and angers me.

Pornography breaks my heart because my sisters are humiliated. They are laughed at, scorned, called “whore”, “slut”. Men ejaculate in their faces. It breaks my heart because my sisters are in pain. That expressions of pain are visible on their faces – if even for an instant – as penises are thrust in their mouths. It breaks my heart because many of my sisters do not have a choice. The freedom of choice for porn stars is mainly an illusion. Although some are completely voluntary, there are many others who are not there through free choice. After all, as Michael Kimmel puts it, “How many working-class women would choose to be pornographic film stars, or prostitutes, if they could just as easily become Supreme Court justices?” Because many of them are in desperate circumstances, trying to feed drug addictions, or homeless – and while this isn’t pornography’s fault, it is unfair for them to be exploited – and a considerable percentage have experienced childhood sexual abuse. This leads to vulnerability and insecurity. Pornography exploits this. Many porn stars are troubled, and are re-living previous abuse, re-enacting it in pornography (indeed it is possible that their abusers learnt how to abuse by watching pornography initially). But it is all they know. It breaks my heart because pornography represents to me – and is often documentation of – heartless misogyny. Pornography is a reminder that we are second-class citizens because we lack a penis; it is a reminder that our society – despite claiming to be tolerant, equal and free – is patriarchal.

Does this break your heart too?

Pornography angers me because it is misogynistic. Pornographers hold disgustingly misogynistic views, and these views are often reflected in their films. They claim that "Women were born with three holes for one purpose: To cram a cock deep inside every cuddly cavity!” Women are “cock sockets.” It angers me because magazines such as Playboy, Hustler and Penthouse find issues such as rape funny: they publish cartoons trivialising rape and showing it in a humourous light. Because magazines such as Hustler print sickening opinions, and their attitudes towards women are puerile and dangerous saying that "There are those who say illogic is the native tongue of anything with tits” Apparently we “speak not from the heart but from the gash.” Apparently, “The one sure-fire way to stop those feminine lips from driving you crazy is to put something between them--like your cock, for instance." It angers me, because despite being represented as “just a bit of fun”, Lads Mags are also contemptuous towards women. Because they are so incredibly visible everywhere, and reproduce similar views towards rape as magazines like Hustler, Playboy and Penthouse – claiming that "A lot of women fantasise about …rape… It’s a myth that women want soft stuff” – they reinforce dangerous, misogynistic attitudes towards rape victims, which perpetuate the victim-responsibility myth, when ALL the time it is 100% the rapist’s responsibility. It angers me because – whether a magazine, film, or whatever medium used – pornography represents women as sexualised, often submissive or even passive, objects to be fucked. It angers me because pornography tells people that women like it rough. They all like to be hit, they all like to be anally penetrated, they all like to gag on erections, they all like to be brutalised, they all like force to be exerted. The rapist’s defence “But she liked it rough” is the pornographer’s defence. It angers me because pornography is often trivialised in its significance, although research has found that “the relationship between particularly sexually violent images in the media and subsequent aggression...is much stronger statistically than the relationship between smoking and lung cancer." Andrea Dworkin noted in “Letters from a War Zone” that the numbers of throat-rapes increased after the release of “Deep Throat”. Although pornography ruins relationships, and is increasingly cited in divorces. Although rapes and murders are sometimes copied from scenes in pornography. Although pornography is viewed before some sexual assaults, or rapes, or murders to steel the nerves of the perpetrators, to “rev” him up. It is still “just a bit of fun”.It angers me because, despite the pain and hurt that is expressed on the faces, and in the voices, of women in many porn films, men still consume pornography and use it to facilitate their masturbation. They are either turned on further by viewing a woman’s pain, or women’s pain is neutral to them. I don’t know which is worse, do you? It angers me because my sisters are de-humanized. They are three holes and two hands. Cunts, anuses, mouths, hands. They are not women, or people. They are simply a sexual organ on legs. For pornography to work, women cannot be human. Their humanity is taken from them. It angers me because, at the end of the day, it is unnecessary. Do men really need to jerk off over graphic celluloid images? Do men really need to have their fantasies dictated to them by porn barons?

Does this anger you too?

I believe that as feminists, we SHOULD be heart-broken and angered by pornography. We SHOULD care about our sisters. I do not believe pornography to be empowering, or liberating. And I think the claim that pro-pornography feminists are “sex-positive” is ridiculous: pornography is not the same as sex. It is certainly not equal sex: the woman is usually in submission, and there is not often mutual pleasure. Pornography does not reflect the realities of relationships or even the personal preferences of the actors and actresses. Because that is what pornography is. Acting. It is not liberating, in my view, to be “acting” sexuality. It is not a genuine expression. It is going through the motions. It is a distorted, one-dimensional view on sex and sexuality and is packaged for marketing. It is not liberating or empowering to be a porn star, female porn stars do NOT call the shots: many are bullied by their agents, and sometimes by their co-stars, too. Regan Starr, star of “Rough Sex 2” got the shit kicked out of her. She was told before the video - and they said this very proudly, mind you - that in this line most of the girls start crying because they're hurting so bad . . . She couldn't breathe. She was being hit and choked. She was really upset, and they didn't stop. They kept filming. You can hear her say, 'Turn the fucking camera off,' and they kept going. That doesn’t sound to me like she’s calling the shots.
Does she sound empowered to you?Although I realise that there are some porn stars who have a more positive experience of the pornography and are working voluntarily, this doesn’t make pornography, as a whole, acceptable. After all, pornography is the complete objectification and symbolic annihilation of women. After all, pornography teaches people that women like to be fucked, and if they don’t it’s because they really want a bit of force first. After all, pornography is propaganda; anti-woman propaganda. Telling people lies about women. Pornography tells men the lie that women are sub-ordinate, that women are objects to fuck, to penetrate, to masturbate over, women are not people, and this message is consistently reproduced through the sexual imagery, and the bigoted, contemptuous attitudes. Pornography is the patriarchy’s mouthpiece. It tells men that women are second-class citizens, that their purpose is to pleasure men, and to be fucked. And to hell with a woman’s personality, idiosyncrasies, quirks, history, dreams, aspirations, preferences.
Pornography is restricting and limiting. It presents sex as hollow, shallow, cold fucking. It is cocks and pussies. Anyone who buys into pornography buys into a narrow-minded, limiting concept of sex, into a stereotypical view of men, women and sex and they buy into the same old, same old routines. There is nothing new or revolutionary about pornography, although the more hardcore films are only escalating the violence, misogyny and male gratification. And, quite frankly, anyone who buys into pornography has little or no imagination.
Pornography is, to my mind, an overtly sexual, explicit, distorted reflection of patriarchy. In pornography, women are symbolically annihilated, de-humanized and overly sexualised. They are objects. They are three holes and two hands. People have told me there’s no point in me engaging in anti-pornography activism. It’s a multi-billion-dollar industry. There’s nothing I can do. I don’t believe that. I may be one individual, but I’m not the only person who feels how I feel. I would like to smash pornography; I would like to smash patriarchy. In my mind, the two go hand-in-hand. If I had a hammer, I’d smash pornography, I’d smash patriarchy. I believe I’ve found that hammer: feminism.
But an out-right ban on pornography would be ridiculous, and unfeasible. The important thing is to address the demand for it. To educate people about the realities of pornography would be a more practical and possible line of action than an out-right ban. To hammer away at the pornography coffin.
And, so sisters, I believe we SHOULD join together. We SHOULD feel moved to do something about pornography. We SHOULD “grrrlcot” shops which sell pornographic magazines and Lads Mags and complain to our High Street Retailers and even our MPs about the visibility and accessibility of Lads Mags at least. We SHOULD tell our male friends, relatives and lovers and any other porn-consumers we know that porn DOES harm women, and it harms the porn consumers, and even their loved ones. We SHOULD campaign for better education about the realities of pornography. We SHOULD campaign for the opening up of new opportunities for porn stars, and other sex workers, particularly the more vulnerable ones. It is all too easy to give into pornography, buy into raunch culture, claim it is “just a bit of fun” and that it does no harm. But you’d only be lying to yourself, I’m afraid.

Taking a break from my "revision"...

2007-04-28T21:58:00.000Z

...because, I'm crap with revision, and have thus far been busy this weekend, and have decided that tomorry is "revision day". Yes, indeedy.

Anyhoo, it's good to see that the Guardian's women section are doing something positive, with an advice column from the goddess that is Beth Ditto.

http://www.guardian.co.uk/women/story/0,,2066814,00.html

I find it really refreshing that someone like Beth Ditto is doing an advice column in a women's section. It's about time there was something different other than handbags, shoes, and make-up. Oh, and slimming.

Despite all the faults in the media, particularly with newspaper journalism, I still want to be a journalist. Partly so I can do my damndest to right these faults. :)

Hibernation now...

2007-04-23T21:33:00.000Z

...On May 11th, I will be starting study leave. I think my first AS exam (which I have a feeling may be History) is on the 15th.
I have exams until 6th June (two History exams, one of which is a Mussolini paper re-take).

I haven't exactly started revision yet.

I am kinda shitting myself about my exams. I've never been really much of a revision kinda student, but I learned from my history exam in January that I really need to sort that out.

And so, 'cos I am terrible at procrastinating, and this blog is one of my favourite methods of procrastination, I have decided to hibernate until, like, the 6th June. (That said, I may check on here every now and then, but I will most probably not post, unless I get too tempted.)

So yeah, Amy will be hibernating for about a month or so.

Happy blogging y'all. :)

Just some things I feel compelled to write about...

2007-04-23T19:07:00.000Z

...Before I go on hibernation...

Firstly.

Just some ways in which the media restrict women and whatnot

"Just look at how women are presented in the media. It's not just about stereotypes.
1) Women have been allocated a limited range of roles
2) Women are less visible in the media than men (After all, in a patriarchal society, they're inferior)
3) Women have been presented as ideals - Ferguson's "cult of femininity" still exists -
4) Women have been selected to appeal to men etc etc

Female issues are marginalised by the media. To use Tuchman's words, women are "symbolically annihilated" by the media.
If there wasn't a patriarchy, why would women be presented like this by the media, which, by the way, I personally believe is an incredibly powerful institution.

I personally believe that traditional images are deliberately transmitted by male-dominated media to keep women in a narrow range or roles, thus reproducing patriarchy."

(This can also double up as a bit of sociology revision, how fun!)

1) Women have been allocated a limited range of roles (in the media)

Social roles for women. There ain't that many of them in the media. Men, however, perform a myriad, the full range even, of social and occupational roles. Women are often found in domestic settings (stereotypical of what?!), as busy housewives, contented mothers, eager consumers, and so on. True, there are some examples where women are more than this. But very often, these women are also mothers/wives/whatever, or desire to be these things. Sexual and romantic roles are also included in this list. Because what more could a woman want in her life, other than to fulfil a sexual, romantic or domestic role? (Yes, yes, I know, many women do want this, but I'm just exploring the possibility that a woman could possibily want more, like, for example, maybe, just maybe, a career, or something?!)
Even when women are in high-status occupational roles - doctors, lawyers - they are often shown as having problems with their "unusual" circumstances. They are portrayed as unfulfilled (with motherhood often being offered as a solution to this), unattractive, unstable, having problems with relationships. Successful working mothers are shown as irresponsible, even as bad mothers emotionally neglecting their children. Men are rarely shown in such a light.

Examples of these successful women? Take Lynette from Desperate Housewives - she felt guilty when she got back into a career, Parker (her youngest son) even created an imaginary Mary Poppins like friend to fill the void left o so cruelly by his mother, to represent the disturbing change in his life - or, Elliot from Scrubs. Neurotic as hell, increasingly so as she gets more successful. (That said, I do love both programmes.)

2) Visibility

In 1990, 89% of voice-overs for television commercials were male, because apparently male voices are more representative of authority, while women were the main stars of only 14% of mid-evening TV progs in the 1990s. Few women stars in Hollywood are seen by the major studios as being able to carry a film by themselves, although women are slowly moving into lead roles in traditionally masculine areas such as science fiction.

However, what is more important, in my mind, is that female issues are marginalised by the media. By marginalised, I mean they are not seen as part of the mainstream, despite the fact that women make up about 50% of the population. They are seen as "other". Yes, most newspapers have "women's pages", which focus on women as a special group with special needs. Now, I can see why some anti-feminists will get all hot and bothered and say "See! See! Women are given special treatment! Wah!" However, most of these pages tend to concentrate on beauty and slimming. Beauty and slimming?! Because all women are that shallow, the only thing they'll be interested in reading about is about beauty and slimming. If you ask me, it smacks of trivialising women and their interests.
In fact, Tuchman called this "symbolic annihilation", meaning the way in which women in the media are absent, condemned (for example, the constant insinuation that women shouldn't wear short skirts, lest they be raped), or trivialised.

And, of course, women are also absent from the top jobs in the media. The majority of media owners are men, as are the higher position holders within media empires. Simple as.

3) Women have been presented as ideals

"Cult of Femininity". Ferguson conducted a content analysis of women's magazines from between 1949 and 1974 and 1979 and 1980, where she found that these magazines promted an ideal where excellence is achieved through caring for others, the family, marriage, and appearance. Modern female mags, especially those with a teenage audience, are supposedly moving away from these stereotypes, although - and I've noticed this from my own personal reading, and just looking at female magazines on shelves - magazines do still tend to focus on, as Ferguson put it, "him, home and looking good (for him)". Although, as Winship did note, women's mags do also tackle problems such as DV and child abuse sometimes.

And haven't you noticed that physical looks, sex appeal and youth seem to be necessary attributes for women to be successful in TV and film? Most women on the box and the silver screen seem to be under 30, or at least look like they are. However, the same is not true for men. There's a much greater range of men in the media.
Wolf pointed out that the media, especially advertising, present a particular physical image as the "normal" or "ideal" body image for women to have, even though this may image may be unattainable for most women. I mean, we're human, we come in many beautiful shapes and sizes.

4) Sex appeal

This seems to be, to be pretty simplistic. Women are often presented as sexual objects to be enjoyed by men. One word: pornography. Another example: page 3 girls. Film-makers often employ a "male gaze", essentially "eyeing up" the female characters. They do this all the time in Scrubs.

***

A tad bit about make-up

For those of you who may not have noticed, in this photo I am wearing some (pretty bright, obvious and unnatural looking) eye make up, and a touch of lippie (and I also don't look that sober either, but that's neither here nor there).

Now, t'other day, I was explaining to one of my friends why I chose not to shave my legs and whatnot. She pointed out that wearing make-up wasn't natural either. Which is true, of course.

However - and maybe the photo doesn't demonstrate this clearly enough - the way I personally use make-up, it pretty much never looks natural. It's not supposed to. Let's get some things straight about my make-up.

It's not supposed to benefit my features, or to improve them. I do not need to.
I've been complimented on both my make-upped face, and on my naked face.
I don't feel I need to wear make-up. I do often leave the house with a nudey face (shocked my cousin once though; she found that concept hard to grasp).
For me, it is fun, and a touch of personal expression (like, I guess, my hairy legs are also a touch of personal expression.)
I make no apologies for my make-up.

The way I see it, on a personal level, is that I have a large, bright personality, and I use bright colours and make-up to reflect this as an aesthetic.

Also, make-up is different for each woman (or, even, man). Whereas, you're either hairy or hairless, with make-up, you can be:

Nudey-faced
Make-upped, but nudey-faced-looking
Crazy-looking-make-upped
Subtly make-upped.
A combination of all the above.

With make-up, there's not so much pressure. It's not the same as with shaving or other forms of hair removal. There's more an individual choice factor, which is important to me.

With my make-up, there are no pretences. Clearly, I do not naturally have sparkly green eyelids. Clearly, my lips are not naturally that Courtney-Love-style-red. It's part of my style, as I choose to wear it. And, I can take as long or as little time as I damn well please, if I do choose to put on make-up.

Seriously, I'll compare how I see make-up and FBH issues in wider society.

Although, that said, I do feel a tad bit concerned, when girls and women feel like they can't leave the house without make-up on. Partly because I know what it's like to have incredibly shit self-esteem, and at some points I actually hated my reflection in the mirror. Sometimes, even with make-up on.

I just don't personally see FBH removal and make-up on quite the same page. One can be quite liberating and expressive and fun, one can be a pain in the arse, amongst other things.

So, just how much of a feminist issue is make-up?

If you're a socialist feminist, I can understand that you wouldn't necessarily be that happy clappy about make-up.

I applaud feminists who refuse to wear make-up, because if they feel that strongly about it, then, great. But I guess I see make-up as more an optional thing, rather than a ritual I must do daily. As Susan Brownmiller said - in the prologue to "Femininity" - "Enormous pleasure can be extracted from feminine pursuits as a creative outlet or purely as relaxation, indulgence for the sake of fun..." and make-up is pretty much the one and only feminine indulgence I enjoy, and, well, indulge in. Partly because, it's not exactly a necessity.

As feminists, and as women, I believe we have the right to express ourselves in whichever way we please. Aesthetically, yes, I do apply make-up to express myself, and I do have hairy legs, too.

O my Goddess!!!

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Recently, I've well and truly fallen in love with Ani Difranco :D

She's amazing. I just love her lyrics.

And, over here, in comedy corner... (to make this an even more pointless post yay)
The thing is, a lot of the comedy I love features penis-owners. But, ya gotta love classics such as Blackadder, Only Fools and Horses, and films such as Life Of Brian and The Holy Grail. My favourite comedian is Bill Bailey. I like to watch the Best of the Comedy Store on paramount, but they hardly ever feature female comedians. Women feature less often in comedy - especially as innovators - than positive, alternative, even feminist-ic women do in the music industry. Although, ya gotta love Dawn French, especially in Vicar of Dibley, and Ronnie Ancona is a brilliant impressionist. Etc.

But, here's a bit of Bl'adders, cos I feel like it :)

Ren tagged me! (How exciting!)

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Ah, a bit of fun :)

A- Available or Single? Urm, is this a word preference, or about my "status"?...But, to shortly answer - I'm not currently in any form of romantic relationship.
B- Best Friend. The best ones: Lissa, Faith, Kay, Tal.
C- Cake or Pie. Caaaaaake :)
D- Drink of Choice. Blates coffee
E- Essential Item. Ivaldo the iPod
F- Favorite Color. Purpular
G- Gummi Bears or Worms. Urm, I'd say worms.
H- Hometown. The town of Dreams.
I- Indulgence. I did indulge myself in buying CDs from Fopp, til the whole Deep Throat thing.
J- January or February. Neither.
K- Kids. Not a big fan. Unless they're quiet and not totally hooked up on sugar.
L- Life is incomplete without… coffee (sad, but true), mates, and music
M- Marriage Date. :
N- Number of Siblings? Ein Bruder
O- Oranges or Apples? Apfelsaft! :) And I guess I prefer apples in solid-fruit-form too
P- Phobias/Fears. Many things, many of which are stupid.
Q- Favorite Quote. Urm, can't think of one at the moment; I'm not really a quote-y person, although I can reel out quite a few from the Life of Brian.
R- Reasons to smile. I have many reasons to smile, and lots of things make me smile.
S- Season. Autumn. I love the leaves and the smell of the air, and the rain, and my bopday :)
T- Tag Three. Laura, Martin, Lizzie.
U- Unknown Fact About Me.
V – Vegetarian or Oppressor of Animals. Oppressor of Animals?! LOL. Meat eater all the way, the bloodier the better (when it comes to steak at least, not so good with chicken!!!)
W- Worst Habit. Hmm...bad habits I have? My coffee drinking is staining my teeth, not so good. I have a habit of apologising too much, that's a tad bit annoying. Can't really think of any really. Ooo, wait, my habit of procrastinating. Bit of a bugger.
X – X-rays or Ultrasounds. I've only had Xrays, I believe
Y- Your Favorite Foods. So many to choose from! Mexicano cheese, which I miss (!), schokolade/chocolat/chocolate, Indian food
Z- Zodiac. SCORPIO :D

Feminism

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feminism
noun {U}
the belief that women should be allowed the same rights, power and opportunities as men and be treated in the same way, or the set of activities intended to achieve this state:
- She had a lifelong commitment to feminism.

feminist
noun {C}
a person who believes in feminism, often being involved in activities that are intended to achieve change:
- All her life she was an ardent feminist.
- a radical feminist

feminist
adjective
- the feminist movement
- feminist issues/literature

There is often a lot of - how shall I put it? - aggro, about the words "feminist" and "feminism", because they mean different things to different people, or groups of people.

Above is the simplest way to describe it really. Of course, it doesn't particularly take into account the various strands of feminism, but that is besides the point.

I know that some people do actually believe that feminism is about trying to achieve female supremacy, or that feminists are man-haters. Maybe for some, it is; maybe some are.

However, just speaking for myself here, my feminism is, put in the simplest possible way, my belief that women should be allowed the same rights, power and opportunities as men and be treated in the same way. I care about people, men and women, but particularly women. Until I feel that women really, genuinely, are equal (and this means socially, not just legally), I will continue to prioritise women in my concerns.

To delve a little deeper, I guess I do, in most respects, identify with radical feminism, in that I look for possible explanations about the current social system, and I see that it is hierarchical according to gender, and that males are superior in this system. This social gender class system, my friends, is called Patriarchy.
The Patriarchy - this system - is the dominant ideology, that of the (white, middle class) male default.
Patriarchy affects everyone, male and female, partly through the socialisation processes into the norms and values of our gender roles, otherwise known as "femininity" and "masculinity", the traits each gender is expected to adhere to. (And yes, I do believe that gender is socially constructed.) I sometimes see "femininity" and "masculinity" as twin pillars holding up the Patriarchy, which is partly why I would like to get rid of these concepts, so that there is no longer a patriarchy, and thus, no hierarchy based on gender.

This doesn't mean I don't like being a (young) woman, or female, because that is my sex, not my gender.

As for other feminists? I don't believe that being pro/anti porn makes you a better feminist. OK, so I tend to read mainly anti-porn blogs, and feminist anti-porn theory and whatnot, but that's partly because that's my own personal leaning, and partly because it's more prevalent, especially in the blogosphere. However, I am also interested in hearing from the other side of the debate.
I don't particularly like the whole "more feminist than thou" attitude. It makes me really sad reading blogs where feminists are arguing in this fashion. I like sisterhood, OK?! Sisterhood Is Powerful! It's always interesting to hear other feminist perspectives, and feminism is pretty damn diverse, with a large and wonderful range of feminists. I'm interested in feminism, in the theories and concepts and the writers. This blog isn't an Idiot's Guide to Feminism.

Feminism is fucking important to me. I think about it a lot. I see so many aspects of my life, pretty much everything, from a feminist perspective. Feminism, at its best, exhilerates me.

SAY IT OUT LOUD, I'M FEMINIST AND I'M PROUD.

P.S. Some other posts about patriarchy and whatnot which really made me think.
http://blog.iblamethepatriarchy.com/2007/04/14/some-notes-on-revolution/
http://witchywoo.wordpress.com/2007/02/11/we-each-pick-our-battles/
http://witchywoo.wordpress.com/2006/12/13/im-a-radical-feminist/

P.P.S Male Entitlement/ Male Privilege Checklist can be found here

Just a bit of Q & A (edited)

2007-04-18T19:35:00.000Z

In an earlier post, someone commented me asking these three questions:

"Why is todays society so focused on sexuality in the media?

Why do so many young women seek to replicate this ideal of sexuality?

But more importantly: Is this a problem?"

For this particular blog entry, I will seek to offer my own personal perspective and opinion on at least the latter two questions, but briefly. I'm sure there will be more to come on the matter at some point.

Now, to begin. The first feminist book I ever read was "Female Chauvinist Pigs: Women & The Rise of Raunch Culture" by Ariel Levy, and I most heartily recommend it, for those interested in feminism and contemporary culture. This book really got me into feminism. So, if you have read this book, you should be able to see where I'm coming from.

Sexuality In The Media

Sexuality is covered a lot in the media. But, for the most part, it's the same old thing. It's a raunchy, plastic sexuality, often emulating sex-workers. Just look at music videos, women are gyrating against poles, their lithe bodies are barely covered, and are often glistening with baby oil or something. The Sun has its infamous Page 3 girls, and other tabloid papers contain plenty of sexualised pictures of women. Even in movies, for example the Charlies Angels films, the stars are dressed, as Ariel Levy puts it, "in alternating soft-porn styles - as massage parlour geishas, dominatrixes, yodeling Heidis in alpine bustiers". And three words: Girls Gone Wild. So, yes, there's a lot of sexuality in the media.
But, how genuine is this sexuality? As I have described it, it all seems pretty one-dimensional to me. And much of it seems to me to be the objectification of women, and seems to be geared towards men's pleasure.

But why does the media focus on sexuality in this way? I don't know, and as yet I don't have any real theory on it, I'm afraid. But here's one possible, tentative idea.

Ariel Levy says,
"Passion isn't the point. The glossy, overheated thumping of sexuality in our culture is less about connection than consumption. Hotness has become our cultural currency, and a lot of people spend a lot of time and a lot of regular, green currency trying to acquire it."

This could be a chicken-or-egg thing here, but I have to wonder, is the media's focus on this brand of sexuality reflecting what the audience wants, or whether it's helping to stir it up.

It's true that today's obsession with "hotness" and sexuality is profitable and lucrative to many people. From plastic surgeons, to celebrities, to those working within newspapers and magazines, and the advertising industry. Maybe this is why there is a focus on sexuality in the media.

But, to be more specific about the question ("Why is todays society so focused on sexuality in the media?"), here's one possible explanation: the media make this new raunch sexuality thing look pretty damn good. Most people like feeling attractive, and they are told this ideal of sexuality will make them hot. And, it is thrust in our faces a lot of the time, and so today's society focuses a lot on it.

Why do so many young women seek to replicate this ideal of sexuality?

Maybe it's a case of group mentality? Maybe it's simply media manipulation. Personally, I think it's a myriad of reasons.

This new raunch culture style of sexuality (arguably, it can be called a "porno-isation" of our culture) is presented by the media as glossy, fun, sexy. We're told it's "Empowering and liberating." This appeals to women, many of whom do believe this to be empowering and liberating, however whether this is or not is entirely subjective and arguable.

But more importantly: Is this a problem?

Now, do not get me wrong, I would like to state very clearly: I am not an anti-sex prude.

If this is the genuine expression of an individual's sexuality, if this is what makes them feel free and happy, and if they are completely comfortable with this sexuality, and there are some women with which this is the case, then great, it's not a problem. However, I am doubtful as to whether this is the case for the majority.

However, I personally feel that if we are truly liberated about our sexuality, surely it shouldn't be dictated to us or hammered into our conscience by the media. Our expressions of our sexuality should be purely our own, provided that it isn't harmful to anyone. Renev recently posted about women's sexuality, and how the patriarchy tries to control it. I personally believe that the promotion of this new so-called "raunch culture" by the media, is another way of controlling female sexuality. How so? By promoting one single ideal of sexuality, women are not being actively encouraged to develop, or discover, their own individual sexuality, they are not bieng encouraged to look inwardly. And, let's face it, the current ideal of raunch culture sexuality is very plastic, pornified, and largely revolves around the objectification of women. It often appears to me, to be more about the same old stereotypes, and less about individual exploration, or celebration.

In fact, recently a report from the American Psychological Association on the sexualizing of women and girls, stated that there is no doubt that "that the proliferation of sexualized images of girls and young women in advertising, merchandising, and media is harmful to girls’ self-image and healthy development."

This is a problem. Self-image is so, so important, and yet the image and ideal we are promoting and constantly pushing onto women and girls is harmful to their self-image.

For any anti-porn fems...

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who want to "Considerably strengthen plans to make it a criminal offence to possess violent pornography or any images, in any media, which advocate, or risk causing, violent, and/or sexual, assaults on children or women," here, have a link and sign, sign sign.

Just a suggestion :)

Ich bin gegen Faschismus

2007-04-16T14:19:00.000Z

Warum?

Einfach, weil das Leben schöner ohne Nazis ist.

My partner on the German exchange, and many of her friends, were active Anti-Facs. This means they were against Nazism and Fascism. I was really interested in the Anti-Fac politics, because I wasn't that aware of the prevalence of neo-Nazism in Germany at the moment. I'd heard rumblings, sure, but I hadn't really considered that it would be such a huge concern to people amongst my age group, or that there would actually be an active anti-fac movement.

While I was over there, there was a Nazi demo in a nearby town (Lübeck). Supposedly, 4000 Nazis were going to attend, but only 250 turned up. Which amused my partner's Anti-Fac friends who did turn up to demo against the demo, some of whom were hit by policemen. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure that Nazis are still very much in the minority in Germany. And, I don't know whether they believe in all the Nazi beliefs, or whether they're just latching onto the far-right symbolism and the racist points of Nazism.

Germany is a wonderful, wonderful country. I fell in love with it the first time I went on an exchange and visited Germany in year 10. Even though after this year, I won't be learning German anymore, I still hope to live in Deutschland at some point. It is a pity that there are all these stupid Nazi stereotypes still, but it is fairly understandable I guess, given the Nazi atrocities. Although, it has to be said, that countries which were actually occupied during World War Two aren't as obsessed with stereotyping in the same way as we are.

However, the realities are that the British particularly like to use Nazi stereotypes in reference to contemporary Germany, and that there is unfortunately a bit of neo-Nazism going on in the Bundesrepublik. Even though Germany has tried so hard to move on from all that.

Another reality is that we in Britain have some lovely little Fascists in our own garden. Y'know, the BNP.

Now, personally, I don't believe that everyone who votes for the BNP are actual Fascists, or evil. I personally believe that there are a lot of hard-working people out there, who read the tabloids and freak the hell out about all those moral panics about immigrants and ra-dee-ra-dee-ra, and that the BNP exploit this fear. It's what's happening in Germany, and, I imagine, pretty much every other Western democratic country with a similar "immigrant problem" (ahem). The tabloids almost had me fooled. It's like in that Kaiser Chiefs song.

Likewise, not everyone who voted for the Nazis (who, by the way, never got a majority in elections) were evil, or Fascists. But they didn't even necessarily vote for the Nazis for the anti-Semitism. It was simply bread and work which was high on their agenda.

However, the BNP are, quite simply put, fuckwits.

And I, for one, am personally "gegen Faschismus", to use a German phrase (cos sometimes, the German feels better than the English). Being in Germany inspired me to be more Anti-Fac. We can't just pretend that the BNP don't exist, and it doesn't matter if they're a minority. It is important to be vigilant against Fascism. To be consciously aware.

P.S. Please excuse the shit German. There is a reason why I'm dropping it after this year ;)

P.S.

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I think it would be really cool if other bloggers who appreciate alternative/strong female artists and bands, etc, if they were to celebrate some of their favourites too :)

Because women aren't often found in the mainstream music industry unless they're half naked, or sexualised in some ways. (Although there are always some positive twists to this tale. See t'other links) And they're hardly given enough coverage in alternative music press, unless in a stereotypical way (see the first Fword link).

And so, it is always good to remember that there are some AMAZING female artists out there, and to shout out about them! :)

There are some great articles on the F word about females (and sexism) in the music industry:
http://www.thefword.org.uk/reviews/2006/09/kerrang
http://www.thefword.org.uk/features/2006/07/dont_cha_wish_pop_was_more_empowering
http://www.thefword.org.uk/features/2007/02/sex_and_the_music_video

And some more positive articles about the mainstream music industry:
http://www.thefword.org.uk/reviews/2003/09/christina_aguil
http://www.thefword.org.uk/reviews/2006/05/the_spice_girls_1
(and my own personal post about the Spice Girls, not to toot my own horn, but it is relevent to this topic y'see)

Now, really, back to work for Amy :)

In more celebration of

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the wonderful and vibrant women in the music industry who rock!

Who don't give a fuck
Who are different and alternative
Who are, in their own way, brilliant role models
Whose music cheers me up, makes me sing and dance (admittedly badly) and makes me proud to be a woman! :D

Solo artists, female bands, bands led by women...

Bjork

Dresden Dolls

No Doubt - Just A Girl

(Vintage) Madonna

Tori Amos

Now, before I get too carried away, I must get on with my work :)
Although organising my history notes is quite depressing, since it's all about Fascism and Nazism.
There's a part of me wishing that I'd started revising sooner, but my notes are in such a mess, and I decided not to take my "Hitler's Domestic Policies" book with me to Germany. ;)

In celebration of...

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...some of the wonderful female solo artists and female (led) bands who cheer me up, make me dance and sing, and just generally fucking rock my socks off.

Skunk Anansie

Hole

PJ Harvey

The Gossip

Siouxsie And The Banshees

(More to come, another day)

THIS...

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IS A GREAT BIG
FUCK YOU
TO ALL THOSE FUCKING WANKERS

WHO ABUSED THEIR RIGHT TO FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

I tried to be fair, I let through a fuck load of comments. Even though the grammar was generally bad, the arguments pathetic, and eventually REALLY off topic.

BUT

You can't say that I didn't warn ya.

I personally believe that the right to freedom of speech comes with a RESPONSIBILITY. And most of you fuckwits just pissed all over that.

So fuck you.

You can be all like "O my god what a fascist why do all these femcunts censor us even though were too fucking smallminded prejudiced puerile and vile to even see that its a tad bit fucked up to go on someones blog and just post downright rude harsh and fucked up comments and not use fucking grammar correctly even though thats because were just stupid hahahahaha"

But guess what?

I really don't give a fuck.

Don't get me wrong, I actually hate having to censor.

But

I will not, I repeat, will NOT tolerate any more of THAT fucking bullshit.

There's being liberal, and then there's being taken for a ride.

And I will NOT be taken for a ride.

So

Fuck y'all.

Don't like it?

You can try and comment about it.

But your comment won't be published.

:P

Really, you can just fuck off.

You have yourselves to blame.

So, just to re-iterate, to get the point clear:

FUCK YOU.

And Now For Something Completely Different...

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I <3 Monty Python :)

More about leg-shaving

2007-04-13T15:59:00.000Z

After my previous post, I have been thinking a bit more of leg-shaving and whatnot.
I've read most of Femininity by Susan Brownmiller (I'm on the penultimate chapter).

And, now, I am going to muse about why women are expected to shave religiously, lest they be lepracised from the heteropatriarchal society for being too hairy.

Could it be simply be that the patriarchy hates women's bodies?

That seems too simple to me. There are other factors, after all.

Could it be just another constraint and form of control, under the pretext of femininity? In my mind, femininity is the socially constructed model of control over women, guidelines we must adher to. For femininity is all about contraints, all about compromises, all about submissiveness, all about accepting second class citizenship, and taking it all gracefully, sweetly.

Femininity ensures that we women are too wrapped up in the little, irrelevent and insignificant things in life, it ensures that we are vain and narcissistic, while men, being the *insert heavy sarcasm here* superior beings, are go-getters; they don't worry about insignificant, trivial things.

I mean, really. The beauty rituals of femininity. How fucking long do they take? How much time and energy, and money do they take? And we're victims of our self-esteem a lot of the time, if we adhere strictly to the rules of femininity. Even the most "confident" of women, if they're sticking to the rules of femininity, how bloody happy with themselves are they, truly? No, it is to the patriarchy's advantage that women are bound to Femininity, and that they ritualistically shave their legs, and revert their bodies to childhood.

Because, women and girls are just SO uncomfortable in their own skin. They really are. THAT'S why they shave. Because patriarchal ideology is so deep, so entrenched in their pysche, that is why they shave.
It's time consuming, but they shave. It can hurt, but they shave.

Because, the patriarchy hates women's bodies. And so, women hate their bodies. Sure they may be proud of their breasts, or their stomachs, or legs or whatever. But, as they shave, they are not rejoicing in their womanliness, they are conforming to femininity.

It takes guts to stand up to femininity. It's so entrenched in our pysche. It's hard making that decision to step outside the mainstream and not shave.

Some girls and women genuinely feel comfortable being hairless. But, I have to wonder, is that because that patriarchal ideology is so deeply entrenched? I think so.

But does any of this benefit the patriarchy?

Yes, I think it does.

Until women are free to CHOOSE to FEEL however the fuck they want, without fear of being stigmatised, without patriarchal pressure, we are still NOT liberated.
I believe that simple everyday rituals, such as female body hair removal, are indicative of an unequal society. It reflects of the compromises women have to make, what they have to do to conform. It smacks of the patriarchy's hatred of women's bodies.

Leg shaving is reflective of an unequal society. Because, the way we view male/female body hair is unequal, and it is gendered.
Biologically, both sexes produce body hair.
According to gender rules, body hair is only acceptable on one gender.
Some girls argue that they shave because bodyhair is unnecessary. We don't need it anymore.
Well, if that is true for girls, what use does it have for males?

A rant about leg shaving

2007-04-07T10:39:00.000Z

I'm back from Hamburg now, and so here's a new post...

Over in Hamburg, it came into conversation with my friend Paul, that I hadn't shaved my legs, or applied any other hair removal method to my legs, since November. Paul seemed shocked, and I detected a hint of disgust and sneering in his voice when he asked if it was part of a "feminist protest".

My refusal to shave is partly due to laziness on my part, and partly due to my resentment of patriarchal pressure to de-nude my legs, and to go against their natural perogative to grow hair. If I am to shave again, it will bloody well be on MY terms, and FUCK whatever anyone else thinks about the hairy state of my legs.

He went on: "But don't you prefer the feel of freshly shaved legs".
I replied: "Actually I like the feel when they're hairy."
(It's true, I do. I like stroking them. I was, in fact, admiring the hair for quite a while yesterday.)

I wish I could have been a bit more articulate, but often, I think of the best things to say too late after the matter.

So, Paul - and other males who may think to ask women who don't shave if they prefer the feeling of shaved legs and whatnot - Don't YOU prefer to feel your legs after they've just shaved?
No - you don't shave your legs?
But, it feels so nice to have shaved legs!
Why don't you shave YOUR legs?

You know what it is, don't you? It's called double standards.
Yes, yes, yes, I know, I know, men often shave their faces, and some men are beginning shave, even wax other areas. Well good for bloody you, mate.
Women are expected to shave/wax/whatever their underarms, their mons, their legs, and any other area where it is deemed socially unacceptable to have hair there.

For fuck's sake, it is WOMANLY to have hair there. Sure, it's not FEMININE, but femininity is socially constructed, as is masculinity.
Body hair is NATURAL.
And why is it that society hates female body hair so much? It's just as natural as male body hair, which is often seen as a sign of virility, and manliness. It's seen as disgusting, revolting, repulsive for a woman to have body hair.

That's called double standards, you fuckers.

I love my body. I love my stretch marks along my hips from when they widened (haven't got pregnant and given birth, I swear! :P), I love my belly - yes, it's a belly, not a toned, slim stomach - I love my body hair, especially on my legs. My body is in pretty much a natural state. Sure, every so often I might use a touch of hair removal cream on my armpits (which is pretty ineffectual to be honest but meh), but, other than that, there are NO hair removal processes going on.

You know, a few weeks ago, I was going out with some mates, and I was going to wear a dress. I considered shaving my hair off, but I actually couldn't go through with it. I'm damn proud of my leg hair. Maybe I will one day shave, but it will be on MY terms, like I said.

Yhey!

2007-03-20T16:09:00.001Z

On Friday, I will be on my way to Hamburg-a-go-go for a 12 day German Exchange, and I cannot wait! :)

However, in between now and then I have to reel out a second draft for my English "Writing to Persuade" coursework, and tweak the commentary of my English "Writing to Entertain" coursework, aaaaaaaaaand work on my German oral. Apparently I'm two months behind schedule. :

Which is a pity, because it means I'll have to concentrate on work, and packing for Germany, whereas I would probably much rather concentrate on writing a blog about how the media affects audience, with my own personal ideas - based on the four or five models we finished looking at in sociology today (yay sociology geek!) - about patriarchal ideology in media texts, and how the audience perceives and is affected by it. :)
So, that's something to look forward to ;)

Now, to leave on a somewhat grr-note. Having plugged Ivaldo (my iPod) in to charge, iTunes automatically popped up, and apparently "Nuts Video Podcasts" is #9 in the Top Podcasts list.
Grr.
I get really sick of the constant exposure and visibility of sexualised (and stereotypical) images and media messages of women.

As for Klapper's "Selective filter model" (an Active Audience Approach), the idea that audiences choose to view, read or listen to a media message ("Selective Exposure")...I personally think that, given that there are so many patriarchal images and messages EVERYWHERE, the audience (you, me, everyone) doesn't have much of an option to select exposure to media messages. Sure, at times you can just switch the TV or radio off, or whatever, but it is a pretty constant bombardment.

And so, now to work...

Norbit

2007-03-10T14:00:00.000Z

You know when something, such as a film, is incredibly and offensively sexist, when The Sun says it is.

"It’s sexist slapstick of the highest order that’s guaranteed to offend all comers. Sadly, what it fails to deliver is any laughs."

(John Vaughan, The Sun's film critic, March 9th)

Maybe it's a positive of sorts when The Sun does recognise that something is sexist. However, not having seen the film, I don't know where they define that line.

I am SO sick of...

2007-03-09T16:25:00.000Z

... people (and by people I mean the media) telling me that things like The Pussy Cat Dolls are Feminism. That it's female empowerment.
(Check out: http://www.nytimes.com/2007/03/05/arts/television/05cats.html?_r=1&oref=slogin, and also, please, particularly check out the language used...)

Some feminists would agree that that is true. Fine. I respect their views, but I personally disagree.

People making generalisations about feminism. People telling me that The Pussy Cat Dolls = feminism. It's one brand of feminism. It's not mine. It's not every feminist's viewpoint. It completely marginalises other feminist viewpoints. Or, is absolutely ignorant.

Grr.

P.S. I'm sorry, but considering how fucking manufactured the Pussy Cat Dolls are, it's just pisstakery suggesting that it's empowerment in anyway. I'm going to avoid throwing words out such as "Raunch Culture" and going on a rant today 'cos I'm bloody exhausted.

Happy International Women's Day :)

2007-03-08T17:50:00.000Z

I'm proud to be a woman.
I'm proud to be a feminist.

But I'm proud to be a human.

I'd like to be a person first, before a woman.

I believe the concept of gender to be socially constructed.
I don't behave, say or think certain things, or do certain things because I have a vagina and breasts, and the whole shebang.
I behave the way I behave, say or think certain things, and do certain things because I am a person with my own characteristics, idiosyncracies, needs, desires, ambitions, history and experiences. Because I am a person in my own right.
I would like to be a person first, before a woman.

My vaginal-ownershipness doesn't, I believe, affect me as a person personally, internally. BUT it affects what the media tell others to believe about me, and even about themselves. It affects how some people behave towards me, even what they think about me, how they judge me.

Traditional social conventions - such as opening doors for women - are examples of how my vaginal-ownershipness affects the behaviour of other people towards me. Penis owner sees me approaching a door, social conventions tell him to open it for me. There's nothing inherently wrong with this course of action, on face value, and I can't be arsed right now to go into the nitty gritty of it, but the point is, that my gender here affects other people's behavioural responses, and of course it isn't personal to just me.

My gender affects what people think about me, and how they judge me, because they compare my actions and words to stereotypes. (Of course, I'm sure not everyone will, especially not if they know me well.) These thought processes are learnt through several different agencies: our dear old friend the media, and (neo) traditional views. Sometimes it comes in the forms of "jokes". This is similar to the Labelling process in education - according to interpretivist theory - whereby teachers make a quick assessment and labels a pupil, according to the teacher's own middle class views, and thus every action and word the pupil will do or say will be judged according to the label given. For example, a pupil who has been labelled as hard-working forgets their homework, teacher says "O well, make sure you give it in next lesson please", while a pupil who has been labelled as a delinquent forgets their homework, basically gets a bollocking because it's seen as laziness and a shit excuse.

And so, despite being proud of being a woman and a feminist, it would be nice to be a person first.

P.S. On a totally unrelated subject. I got my Mussolini paper results back. I got two marks off of a B, and to be quite frank I'm bloody amazed, considering I had quite the freak out! However, although it is a (flattering) reflection of my performance of the day, I feel I am a candidate of higher calibre, and so will be re-sitting. :) Wasn't half as bad as I thought it'd be!!!

NME...and a rant

2007-03-04T12:38:00.000Z

How could they have awarded Kate Moss the sexiest woman award?!
For starters, she's a model, not a musician, so how is she applicable for an award from a music magazine?!
She is not a responsible, or a positive role model for young girls or women; there's the whole cocaine thing, and the fact that she's super skinny, and yet she's won an award for being sexy. Sexiness is, according to much of our pop culture, a desired and valuable attribute all women should have, and should sweat and slave to achieve. Therefore this sends out the message that drugs are sexy, and that to be sexy, you need to be skinny. And an idiot for some dopehead.

On the other hand, Beth Ditto would've been a much more deserving winner. And it would've sent out a much more positive message: that there's not just one idea of sexiness, you don't have to be thin or conventional looking. You can speak your mind and be yourself, and that's sexy. I think she's beautiful and brilliantly unconventional.

But no.

And it is something of a pipedream, because the media is so stuck on certain concepts of womanhood, and telling women they should be a certain way. They refuse to think outside the patriarchal box.

I also have another bone to pick with the whole sexiest woman award thing. Although there is a sexiest male award, this isn't given as much attention as the sexiest woman award. It's as if to say that the only place for women in music is to be sexy. Even though there are various wonderful, strong, talented female musicians and singers.
The thing is, women in alternative music are not given as much press as males. I haven't bought a Kerrang mag in aaaaages, but women were hardly ever present or mentioned, and when they were it was often in an objectified, stereotypical way. There's an article on the F Word which will go into this in more detail than I will in this particular post: http://www.thefword.org.uk/reviews/2006/09/kerrang.
While men are hailed as heroes, or gods, in rock music, women barely get a mention outside of groupie anecdotes.
And mainstream music - don't even get me started. Videos for pop and r'n'b, and hiphop etc are just a minefield of misogyny. Even when it's a female band, or a female artist, women are still presented in objectified, sexualised lights. And often the lyrical content isn't that much better.

The thing is, music often reflects raunch culture - particularly R'n'B, and HipHop etc, whose lyrics are often damn right misogynistic. Women in music videos are all shiny and skinny, sometimes with large breasts, gyrating against a pole, or simulating a sex act or something. But that's just not what sexiness is about to me. The whole idea of "sexiness" needs one hell of a re-branding. It should be subjective, it should be idiosyncratic, it shouldn't be constricted and restricted and limited and squashed into one small box. I know there are some women who feel sexy with their breast implants, and when they're gyrating against a pole: fine. But to say that to be sexy you have to pander to male fantasy, or to what the media constantly screams at you to be, isn't sexy. You can be sexy if you're slim, curvy, fat. The point is, that sexiness isn't an aesthetic, and it shouldn't be marketed as such, especially since it is marketed as just one aesthetic. To me, sexiness is more about being comfortable with yourself, being able to speak out, not conforming to one ideal. So maybe sexy isn't the right word for it.

This post has been something of a rambling, unstructured rant: we've gone from Kate Moss to Ariel Levy almost. Damn I loved her book!

Five Things...

2007-03-02T22:38:00.000Z

I was happily browsing through the blogosphere, when I checked out Thinkinggirl's blog (t'is v. interesting), and I decided I'd like to tag myself to do the "Five Things You Didn't Know About Me" thang. That is, if I am not too tired to think of five things.

1) Now, I know I've mentioned my Coffee Habit at least once, somewhere on this here blog, but what you don't know (until now), is that I really, really, really hate to have any family member within the coffee-making vicinity, or even in the kitchen, while I'm making my coffee. I think it's because I do tend to put in a wee bit too much sugar, and that that would be Frowned Upon and I'd get lectured, and so I got into a habit of being as surreptitious as possible with the old sugar-me-do, and have now got to the point where I cannot bear to have anyone nearby, unless a they're a trusted friend.

2) I hate, hate, hate open doors. I just feel vulnerable, as if my privacy is about to be invaded, most likely by my mother. This is a particularly sensitive issue when I'm with a friend (could be discussing something private, or even nothing much at all) or on the phone to a friend. Even if I'm only cuddling up to a guy, I hate feeling my privacy is being invaded.

3) I had an imaginary friend as a child called George. He lived in my hat and I used to eat him. My nan would humour me and try and bring him in the car with us, but I would've had him in my hat all along. I actually have no personal recollection of this; my nan told me. Although I do remember playing games with the many Beanie Babies I had. I taught them in classes, where I would prepare work for them, and a friend and I had "Beanie Baby Land", where it would be like a Disney World for our combined Beanie Babies. Lord we were cool!

4) I once managed to convince myself I was the Pope. My dad didn't help matters by referring to our car as the "Pope-mobil". I have a very vivid imagination, and sometimes imagine I'm seeing axe-murderers or something similarly crazy. My nan used to call me "Dolly Daydream", and I still daydream a lot, mainly for escapism.

5) I try not to be a judgemental person, and for the most part when I meet new people I will initially view them in a more positive light, until they do something screwy to make me re-evaluate my opinion. I'm quite a receptive person, I'd just be happy to talk to almost anyone. That said, there are a few people who I meet, or I see, and I just get bad vibes. I trust these bad vibes and steer well clear, even though this conflicts with not being judgemental.

Amy's Non-Valentines Day, and as a result, her largely Non-valentines related blogpost

2007-02-14T19:20:00.000Z

(I hate Val-day, and no, it's not because I "don't have anyone"...)

Today, on Non-Valentines Day, I went into Bedford, Town of Dreams with my best friend Lissa.
We had some coffee at Bar Citrus, where I am almost a regular, bought some hair dye for me (rrred!) 'cos I felt like I wanted to temporarily change me hair colour to something crazy. Took some obscenely myspace pictures as we walked down the embankment. Bla bla bla.

But we also stopped in the Mars Shop, so Lissa could buy the latest issue of "More" magazine. I went in with her. To be honest, I'd completely forgotten about the horrors of Lads Mags.

But not for long.

I mean, bloody hell, I was in the shop for two seconds, I turned around to look at the mag shelves, and right on my fooking eye level, there were a pair of breasts. And by a pair of breasts, I mean the o-so-artistic cover of Zoo Magazine. Grrr. Next door, was Nuts.
OK, so the nipples were covered, by how is that any better? It suggests that a woman's nipples are something obscene, something dirty, something to be embarrassed about and not be shown publicly. Whereas, pictures of topless men, it's all nipples-a-go-go. Because, of course, a man's nipples are perfectly socially acceptable.
Believe me, I am not a fan of Lads Mags.

I couldn't just stand there in that shop and not do anything, y'know what I mean? I'm sure there are many women, feminists, who cannot just simply stand in a shop and not do or say something about Lads Mags and their visibility.

And so, I said something. To be honest, I cannot quite remember what I said. There were two blokes and a woman working there. I asked if the Lads Mags could go up on the top shelf, and be covered, or something to that effect. I was told the mags were supposed to be on that second shelf legally. They could sell it to a two-year-old if they wanted. There was no age restriction.

It's not that I thought that my informal complaint would do anything, I just knew I couldn't just stand there silently and not voice my displeasure. And to be quite frank, I personally feel the employees could have been a bit politer and respectful towards me; I got the feeling they thought I was being ridiculous. They were virtually smirking. This angered me. They could've just said apologetically that it was the way things were. But no, it's all smirk-smirk-smirk.

I know there are no legal restrictions for the visibility and distribution of Lads Mags, but surely a customer has a right to complain and get taken seriously, at least to their face? It's rude and unprofessional for one thing to ridicule a customer.

As I left, my anger caused me to shout out something about living in a patriarchy. I can't remember exactly what I said. The woman replied something in a smirking tone.

My friend was then very embarrassed about the whole situation. I felt saddened by it. But, my feminism felt alive inside me in a way which I hadn't felt before. It felt vindicated, it was a feeling of being a second-class citizen, of being ignored and ridiculed for a simple request.

I don't think being concerned about Lads Mags is something to be ridiculed. I don't think that Lads Mags are just "harmless fun". I think their very popularity is a sad indictment of our patriarchal society; that magazines which are often derogatory about women, which constantly sexualise and objectify women can be so popular, and allowed such visibility and to be sold to anyone is - bloody irresponsible - saddening, and is further proof that British society, which prides itself on it's tolerance and equality, is still a society where women are second-class citizens.

(Linkage to some other posts and articles about Lads Mags: http://notafeministbut.blogspot.com/2006/03/is-it-right-for-my-boyfriend-to-look.html
http://www.object.org.uk/index1.html
http://www.thefword.org.uk/reviews/2004/02/nuts_and_zoo_we from a male p.o.v)

"You Suck"

2007-02-13T20:09:00.000Z

[Edit: When I wrote this post originally, I had one person very much in mind, which caused the post to infer a generalisation that ALL guys, my age at least, are selfish when it comes to things such as oral sex. I do not believe that ALL guys are selfish in this respect, this post is written more specifically about guys who ARE selfish]

This song has been attributed to both Consolidated and the Yeastie Girls.
For those who have not heard it, it's a female rapping about why her boyfriend should give her oral.
It makes me smile, no - smirk -, because it reminds me somewhat of a guy I know, who isn't too keen on giving girls oral, but expects to get it himself. This leads me on to muse a bit more broadly about what some of the song lyrics make me ponder about my and even some of my friends' experiences with guys, and their attitudes.

I know you're really proud 'cause you think you're well hung
But I think it's time you learn how to use your tongue

Guys do seem, at my age at least, to be at times preoccupied with the size of their penis, because apparently it's supposed to be impressive to be bigger than average.
However I have never particularly given that much of a fuck. I'm more concerned about mutual enjoyment and respect for one another's feelings, to give much of a toss (heh) about whether they're hung like a horse or resemble a chipolata.
What good is the size of a penis to me, if he doesn't give a damn about what I want?
And I'm something of a fan of cunnilingus. One of the things I like about it, is that I can feel really connected to a guy.

You say you want things to be even and you want things to be fair
But you're afraid to get your teeth caught in my pubic hair

I refuse to do anything with a guy which I'm not comfortable with, and I won't do anything a guy does not feel comfortable with either. It is often presumed that a guy is ready and willing for anything, yet my ex didn't want to have sex yet because he'd seen too many of his mates mess up relationships through sex, and we mutually decided to wait anyway.
By things being fair, it doesn't mean that just because he's done something to him, you're obligated to "returning the favour" so to speak. What you do has to be on your own terms, and I always like to come to a mutual agreement.

The pubic hair line makes me smile. I personally refuse to shave down there. I may occasionally shave my armpits when I feel too uncomfortable with the state of them not to, and I haven't shaved my legs since November, but the point I am trying to make is that I am more flexible in my opinion on shaving armpits and legs, because they are often - especially armpits and in the warmer months - more on display, and I would feel too self conscious at this stage in my life to go too hairy, and so I compromise by shaving occasionally. However, I refuse pointblank to shave my pubic mound. It feels too much, to me, like the infantilisation of my genitalia. It is reverting uncomfortably back to my pre-pubescent body. It seems odd to me, to physically revert back to such a young age, especially if it's "for a guy". There's something sick about that. However, I digress...
The thing is with the pubic hair line, no woman should have to feel pressured for shaving down there, just to make a guy happy. It's ridiculous. If a bloke doesn't like my body au naturel, he can go to hell :) And it's a stupid reason for not trying to make someone happy (i.e. by giving them oral, particularly if you expect it back)

If you're lying there expecting me to suck your dick
You're gonna have to give me more than just a token lick

Heh, one of the things this line reminds me of, is my mate who ended up having an argument with a guy (she'd just given him oral). He refused to give her oral in return saying it was "too different" yet was happy to receive it and fuck her. They ended on a "no lick, no fuck" note.
I must admit I get annoyed by guys who seem to have the kind of attitude - no doubt learned through porn - that girls are supposed to give them oral, and yet won't even try to make her happy by giving her oral, if she likes it that is. After all, some girls don't like it, or don't feel comfortable trying it.
But this line holds a certain resonnance for me, because this guy is always going on about oral sex (as in fellatio) and yet doesn't like giving cunnilingus. Maybe it's wrong of me, but I lose interest in such selfishness. It's the principle that, if a guy is going to be persistent in demanding oral for himself, if a girl asks for a return, he should suck it up and give her oral to the best of his ability, because if - whether it's a casual one night stand, casual dating or serious relationship - you're not both willing to mutually respect and try to make one another happy, it seems pretty pointless to me, and there is no space for selfishness. If you want to be selfish, masturbate by yourself, don't play a team game. It just doesn't seem to be equal, to me.

You tell me it's gross to suck my yeast infection
How do you think I feel when I gag on your erection?

I can understand that some guys may not like the taste. But if they respect a girl, and want to make her happy, and they want things to be equal and fair, and they receive oral sex from her, it seems only fair to comply if she asks for oral sex. After all, I've heard quite a few girls in my time complain about how they don't like giving head. I personally have very little experience in the matter (I also have quite limited experience of cunnilingus, but enough to know that I bloody like it, and to be fair, my ex and I mutually decided to wait a little while before I give him oral, because we didn't want to completely rush things).

I'm not saying that a guy should immediately go down on a girl as soon as she tells him, just like a girl shouldn't go down on a guy as soon as he tells her to. I'm saying both acts should be on the giver's own terms, but that if a guy is going to virtually demand oral, he should put a more conserted effort to giving a girl oral if she so desired. I'm saying it should be all out of mutual respect and a desire to make both people happy. A bit of a give-and-take kinda thing. Not all a one-way sort of thing. I guess I'm saying I personally find selfishness a real turn-off.

"Footballers don't rape women, because they can get anyone they want"

2007-02-11T16:47:00.000Z

Quoth "Megaman".
On the illustrious BBC's new "Entertainment"programme, The Verdict, about a rape trial.
Because rape trials are, apparently, something like entertainment for the masses; it's OK, it's entertaining - they've bung a load of celebrities together.

I've had major issues with the whole concept of the programme. And I have major issues with Mr "Megaman"'s comment.
"Footballers don't rape women, because they can get anyone they want."
That attitude disgusts me, to be quite frank.
It's a massive, gross, generalisation for one thing. I do not want to fuck a footballer, for example. I may be one person, but I'm sure I'm not the only one.
And I certainly do not like the suggestion that women are just there for footballers to pick out, to have sex with, then to discard them for the next woman. As if they are objects, passive objects, which will just fall at any footballer's feet. And why? Because he's a footballer.
O my God, a footballer!! Oh, golly, I'm so impressed I'm going to open my legs nice and wide for him.
I'm sure there are some women who will quite happily fuck a footballer casually. But the idea that all women are available for footballers to fuck is ... ridiculous. Insulting, offensive. Misogynistic at worst, chauvinistic at "best". Ludicrous.

But then again, many footballers appear to have inflated egos; they're overpaid and almost fanatically hero-worshipped. And for what? Kicking a fucking ball around. I will probably never get people's - especially men's - obsession with football, footballers and teams. They appear to me to believe that they can get any woman they want. And this attitude fucks me off. They have no right to feel entitled to whopping great sums of money or women, just for kicking a ball about.

And making a statement such as "Footballers don't rape women, because they can get anyone they want" is damn right irresponsible. Nobody is entitled to anybody else. Women are not commodities. Not all women want sex with a footballer certainly. This statement is just not true, and it shows "Megaman"'s bias. He clearly believes in the footballers' entitlement, and as a result he clearly believes that this woman was lying.

There are many, many victims of rape out there. We all know that. I personally think it's a bit fucked up that the BBC is making a programme about rape trials for "entertainment".
Enter-fucking-tainment.

(Edited after being corrected by Mr Collymore for incorrectly attributing the quote to him. I quoted him in good faith, people do make errors sometimes, and I accept that I was wrong to put his name down, but this rant was directed at the comment not the commentor)

Come again?!?

2007-02-08T18:02:00.000Z

'Scuse the pun...

just reading a report about a study of teenagers using condoms.

(Linkety-link: http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/health/4775243.stm)

The researchers also asked just over 100 teenagers to keep a diary of their sexual activity for six months.

And here's the bit which, quite frankly, amazes me:
"Of the 74 who said they had used a condom, 31% had put it on after penetration had already occurred".

The words "stable door", "bolted" and "horse" come to mind.

Not being funny or anything but it seems to me that either this 31% are incredibly stupid, or they just haven't been taught properly. Maybe they didn't have the woman with the polystyrene penises come round to their school to show how to put on condoms.

It just astounds me, to be honest.

Possibly astounds me as much as when my - very sexually active - friend asked me if, after having uprotected sex with her then-boyfriend, squirting water up the vagina from a showerhead would stop her from getting pregnant.

(And this girl, by the way, is actually highly intelligent and logical, and was in all the same sex-ed lessons as me.)

Because he annoyed me...

2007-01-19T17:50:00.000Z

Some bloke wrote an article on First Post defending 'women's right' to partake in raunch culture... And so I 'had my say'. It went something along the lines of:

I would like to address a couple points made by the author (who I noticed was male).

"The normalisation of sex is an issue in our society and does cause problems."
It is not so much a normalisation of sex, but a porno-isation of sex. For raunch culture is not about emulating sex, but about emulating pornography. Pornography is the simulation of sex and pleasure, it is not real pleasure which is being conveyed. If people are truly liberated about sex, they wouldn't be emulating ACTING. I believe this to be restrictive, limiting and not liberated or empowered.

I personally found Tom Eilenberg's argument weak: his distress at having 'to endure the upsetting spectacle of eight-year-old girls prancing around singing "I'll be your naughty girl tonight"' weakens his argument that raunch culture should be enjoyed by female students because it is their "right", because it is as a direct result of raunch culture that eight-year-old girls are singing sexually provocative songs. Clearly, raunch culture affects more than just university students, and Eilenberg seems to be acknowledging that raunch culture has a negative affect on young girls.

Secondly, I feel compelled to argue with his belief that "There are more important battles for the feminists of today to be fighting." I do not believe he has any right to tell feminists what they should or should not believe in, or fight for. I find it - and to quote him - "condescending and plain wrong". It is patronising, too, and seems to invalidate many feminists' views.

I would suggest that Tom Eilenberg should read Female Chauvinist Pigs - Women & The Rise of Raunch Culture by Ariel Levy before he comments on raunch culture again.

Sick fuck

2007-01-13T15:52:00.000Z

Picking up any newspaper can be depressing at times. It often re-inforces the idea that the world's a fucked up place. There are many different and various things in the papers - from the red tops to the broadsheets - which highlight this view.

Recently the case of the 20 year old babysitter - James Dean - from Cornwall has been in the news. Dean raped - or in the words of the victim did "rude things" - a three year old girl, now five. He also assaulted her old sister, now 9, and another girl, now aged seven.

That's disgusting. Despicable. I generally go along the principle of "killing is wrong, full stop", and so I'm generally against capital punishment, although there are times when I feel so incredibly angered, and saddened, when I hear of certain crimes that I wish for a more severe form of retribution for the perpetrators. This is one of those cases. It's deplorable. (For some reason I can only think of adjectives beginning with "D" in reference to the crime.) This piece of shit was the 2 sisters' baby-sitting, he was in a position to trust. They're all little girls. I think there was also a case involving a fourteen year old girl, but I don't know so much about that. I honest to God hope that the little girls, and any other girl he's abused, will be OK. But this is something which affects a person terribly, at whatever age they are violated. It damages a core sense of trust in others, for one thing. I've heard that the youngest child is now a lot more self-conscious and covers herself, whereas before she was free and happy and open as many little children are, because they're naive, innocent and trusting.

And why did he do this? Because he was frustrated that his girlfriend wasn't having sex with him.

What a ... What a complete pile of wankstick. How fucking dare he feel entitled to have sex? How fucking dare he feel he is entitled to that right? How fucking dare he violate the right of young girls to be free of harm, just so he can have sex? Which isn't even something he's entitled to. It's a sick mind which believes it's entitled to have sex, it's a sick mind which believes it has to force another human being into sex to satisfy the perpetrators desires.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!

That mindset really, really pisses me off.

I do not blame the mother of the 2 sisters who said - as the headline of The Sun yesterday declared - "Shoot him." I would want to do that, I'd feel the same. It's because this is the kind of crime which evokes strong emotions, and I do not believe that the British justice system punishes the rapists and molesters harshly enough. I believe that just a 5% conviction rate for rape is not good enough, and that it is partly indicative of this fact. I've heard cases of rape, where the rapist is given 6 years, is out in 3. And it's just fucked up. It gives potential rapists the OK to rape, because the repercussions are not severe enough, and the conviction rate is low anyway, so they may not even have to face any kind of repercussion anyway.

I cannot articulate this well at the moment, so I will go back to this later.

Although, I should probably note, that this case was taken to court, the five year old girl was one of the youngest victims to testify in British legal history, and did so through a two-way video. She was examined by two independent pyschologists, who both said she was a credible witness (part of the defence's argument was that she wasn't). And yes, he has been jailed "indefinitely", although I must confess to being a bit confused, because I also read something about x amount of months or years and being able to go x amount of time early. Course, if anyone knows any better and could correct me on this, please do.

Amy's in a funk

2007-01-12T20:46:00.000Z

Gah, I hate, hate, hate it when I get it into funks.

I rarely, however, get into funks about the academic side of my life.

But, today, I had my first AS exam. It was on the rise of Italian Fascism. 2 essays in 55 minutes. It counts for a third of my AS history grade. One of the courses I am considering is History & Journalism at QMU in London.

I spent 20 bloody minutes crossing shit out! I mean, complete fucking waste of time, idiot!

I never got to finish it, either. Which could have been OK, if I'd what I'd written had been anything decent. But, causation questions are multi-causal, and I could only really think of one factor of the March on Rome which led to Mussolini's appointment as Prime Minister. And I wasn't as analytical about it as I coulda been. Shoulda been. Meh.

I can always re-take, right.

But it's got me thinking that maybe I'm just not cut-out for it all. Which is fucked up, because I'm not stupid, and I so want to go to University then be a journalist.

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Feel so fucking stupid.

Gaaaaaaaaah!!!

2007-01-09T22:19:00.000Z

I think that word sums up my immediate thoughts/feelings quite succinctly after discovering what my brother had been downloading from Limewire yesterday.

(No prizes for guessing what...)

My brother is 13, almost 14. He is very small for his age and, in my personal view, resembles something rat-like; but that is neither here nor there.
So he's at that age when a lot of guys do start to watch/look at porn. I guess it's because - and I'm not much of an expert on guys that age, because I was always more focussed on what was happening to me - guys tend to want to "explore" at that age, and society pretty much expects them to objectify women, and to start doing so as soon as possible. (Funny how it's 'Lads mags' not 'Mens mags', non? Seems to connote something more youthful about it all.) I mean, I'm probably about to go off on a tangent here but, it's pretty socially accepted within my peer group (I cannot speak for others), and has been since around that age, that guys watch porn and "jerk off". At the same time, masturbation amongst girls is pretty much a taboo subject, and I went to an all-girls school 'til 16, and we talked about a lot of sexually explicit stuff together, but never any serious mention of masturbation.

Now, around September time, my brother discovered/realised that you can get porn on the internet (I personally blame his school friends; I noticed strange websites cropping up on the Internet history around the time he had about 3 or 4 mates over, it was shocking). He was on the computer in the study doing "homework", mum comes in to check he's doing homework, and then the next thing I know, mum's going balistic. She's screaming at him (believe me I would do the same!) and he starts crying. Mum tells him that that is what porn does to you. I actually sat in the other room froze, because I don't know if anybody likes to think of a relative perusing porn sites, y'know? Although, that said, I did actually go and storm in for my tuppence: "PORN'S SICK!"

Anyhoo, brother didn't go on any porn sites after that (although, I once noticed he'd looked up "boobs" "thong" and "ass" and various combination of the aforementioned words in google images).

Now, onto yesterday. (Yeah, I still haven't got this blogging thing down yet.) Last friday, or around that time, my brother got a laptop. Now, I kind of knew this could potentially be asking for trouble... And I was (of course) right. I mean, because I'd just updated my iTunes I could see what was on his shared Limewire files (I'd installed iTunes onto his laptop on Friday), and I felt sick. Maybe I'm prudish, but whatev, I'm just not OK with porn.

I can kind of understand why boys aged 13-14 watch porn, but I'm not saying I think it's right. I think there's a social/peer pressure put on them. It's from that age, when they're beginning to develop, and like girls are aware of their bodies and the changes, when the social/peer pressure begins to pile on them to be sexually dominant. To be a player. To (at least pretend to) have a big dick. To fuck girls. To watch porn. To masturbate. To be sexually confidant. And guys pick up on these themes in everyday sitcoms. There always seems to be the whole "haha he's got a small dick" thing going on in popular culture. And, let's face it, there are images everywhere of women represented as sex objects. So most guys get to the age of 13/14, start watching porn, (maybe earlier, what do I know?), and they find it acceptable, because that's what popular culture says essentially. It's masculine to watch porn. All the boys are doing it.
I think some guys think that, by watching porn, they'll be some kind of expert when it comes to actually doing stuff with girls. Based on what, may I ask? "Acting"? (For want of a better word, and of course, sometimes it's worse: it's rape). Psch.

The majority of us like to fantasise, yes, but we don't all need porn. Porn is restricting. Porn dictates what our fantasies should be. Porn is not equal. At least that's all true in the traditional male-audience-orientated porn. Because that's what I mean when I say "porn". I do tend to generalise my terms too much, make them too vague and ambiguous.
I don't know much about porn which is aimed at women. Maybe the representations of men and women are more equal, there's no sub-ordination. So I won't pass any comment on that. I've heard some definitions of porn which include the "demeaning or sub-ordination of one person/people" or something which I've paraphrased from memory. However, the definition of porn on dictionary.com (Aren't I cool?!) is: "creative activity (writing or pictures or films etc.) of no literary or artistic value other than to stimulate sexual desire". In which case it would be quite possible for porn aimed at women to be more equal and liberating, except for the fact that is is acting, and not true sexual expression.

Honestly? One of the first things that comes to my head when the issue of men/boys watching porn is raised is: fucking pathetic. It really is.

It seems sometimes the world's a lonely, lonely place for a young Bedfordian Feminist...

2007-01-07T12:55:00.000Z

Why would anyone not want to conform, huh? I swear, I look around my sixth form common room (by the way, my sixth form is one of the largest in the country, with 600 students), and I see a lot of conformity, the most obvious being slavish devotion to fashion. And I've honed a very keen sense which enables me to spot out conformity/superficiality/fakeness from the very intonation of someone's voice and their mannerisms. So, to be honest, I feel like I'm in the bloody minority. But that's ok with me, actually, for the most part.
Most people my age do not seem to show an active interest in Feminism, they do not seem to care. Some seem to belittle or ridicule it. It's seen as out-dated and extreme; who wants to be either, eh?

I have a couple of theories why this is the case, and I have made tentative steps in asking people why they're not interested in Feminism. One girl said: "I think we have enough rights. We don't need anymore." If you ask me, she seems to have completely missed the point of it. She even went on to say something about men always having been the main providers.
I think a lot of people believe there is equality, or maybe they're just happen to settle with what they're got. Maybe they believe all the stupid stereotypes about feminism, and therefore don't want to be painted with that brush, or don't view themselves as feminists. Maybe they'd just rather devote their time to fashion, friends, boys, and parties. If that makes them happy, fine.

Or is it?

There are times when I really, really wish that more people my age did care about feminism. Luckily, my best friend Faith seems to agree with me on some of the subjects we've touched base on. But, that's one person, and she doesn't even go to my sixth form. I do love to talk about things I feel passionately about, I do love to have intelligent conversations. And if there's hardly anyone pro-feminist around, what the hell am I supposed to do?

Here's a few examples from some attempts I've made, albeit relatively paraphrased but remembered to the best of my ability.

On the bus one day on the way to school. I was talking with a group of people in my year about the Ipswich murders. I cannot quite remember exactly what I was talking about, but I think I may have been saying that prostitutes don't choose prostitution; many are forced by desperate circumstances into prostitution. This girl just casually brushed all that I'd said aside and said: "Yeah, well, they're not all nice. I mean, go down Tavistock Street [pretty much Bedford's redlight district], they're all dirty skanks really."
It's not that I mind people disagreeing with me, actually I quite like it (odd as that may sound, but diversity is great in debates). It's just that the level of conversation had gone from fairly intelligent - using polysyllabics for crying out loud! - to a toss-away comment, which clearly had no thought put to it, and was pretty irrelevant to the point I was making. I mean, let's do a brief analysis of the language she used. Well, it was pretty much monosyllabic/basic language, and the choice of lexis ("dirty skanks") suggests negative judgement, and no thought or questioning as to why womyn are in that situation. "They're not all nice"...Excuse me, but I don't care if someone's manipulative, selfish, generous, honest or whatever personality traits they have, nobody deserves to be prostituted and it's damn wrong to use and abuse womyn as if they're for some john's own personal use, or toy to play with.

In English, we've been studying the Language & Gender module. In one lesson, I made a point paraphrasing from Female Chauvinist Pigs - the idea of one of the most successful executives in publishing (Judith Regan) bragging that she has "the biggest cock in the building" is harmful to womym, and herself, since having the "biggest cock in the building" suggests something superior about men, or that male qualities are more conducive to success and therefore women's achievements are more inferior because they are not the achievements of a man, and by extenstion, all that Regan and her female peers achieve will never be as good as that of a man's, because by their (her) own definition, to be truly successful you have to have "the biggest cock".
Then, a guy responded to my comment by saying that "that sounds like feminism." His tone was negative, and suggested he felt there was something quite distasteful about it all. I assumed he meant the point of what I'd said was feminist, then I realised he meant what Judith Regan had said sounded feminist. Which is ironic, because to me it is anything but feminist. In another English lesson, a point was made by my (female) English teacher, about the possible sexist meanings to a certain word or use of word, to which the same guy responded by saying "That's just feminist talk", using the same derogatory tone.

Now, it's not that I believe that everyone SHOULD be a feminist just because I am, but I'm not particularly keen on hearing feminism expressed in such derogatory tones by someone who appears to be pretty ignorant on the whole subject. So, basically, I snapped.

"Why is it that you always refer to feminism in a negative tone, like it's something bad?!" Amy began.
The guy replied in a quiet, mumbly tone: "I just don't appreciate extreme feminism."
"Well that's fair enough, but that wasn't extreme feminism. There's so many different kinds of feminism [here I gave a few examples which I could think of, although I'm sure there are many I haven't heard of, and I know I'm not the most qualified on the subject]. You're just thinking of stupid stereotypes which were designed to undermine and hurt feminism and you clearly know very little about it at all!!!"

In fact, yesterday, another guy claimed the world was run by women (as if), and to back up this claim he said: "Men have sex when they can, women have sex when they want." (Which, if you ask me, is a total disregard for all the rape victims!)

Also, I swear honest to God, I feel pretty isolated being a Feminist in Bedford. I've joined a couple of London-based Feminist Yahoo groups, but, it's next to impossible to go along to any meetings, due to train prices/times/location of meetings (have no sense of direction)/ lack of fellow feminist sympathisers to commute with me. I would honestly love to join some kind of Feminist group closer to home...

But, there are many positives: thank Goddess for blogging, eh folks?!

Feminism & That Spice Girls Thing On Sky One

2007-01-01T13:46:00.000Z

(At least from my point of view!)

Loved, loved, loved that they had Ariel Levy on! :) Made Amy happy! :)
Because, her book - Female Chauvinist Pigs - was the first piece of feminist work I'd ever read.

I must admit I was a Spice fan; I was about 7 or 8 years old when they emerged. I think it was the first CD I ever got, I remember getting it for Christmas. I even saw 'em at Earls Court, although that said, I was beginning to become less enamoured with them. I liked the whole "Girl Power" thing, though. I liked the idea for years after, even though it was still pretty much as basic. I liked the idea of girls having power. I don't remember ever being too sure what that "power" was for, but it, and the fact that each Spice Girl had her own individual identity - gave me a strong sense of individualism, free choice for myself, and all women, sisterhood, and an unwillingness to conform (Despite the fact that the Spice Girls were manufactured- ah! Irony!) which I still have today.

Yes, there were many flaws in the Spice Girls; lack of genuine talent (although bloody good marketing skills!), they didn't really express any deep, intellectual ideas, and their brand of feminism - ie "Girl Power" - was basic and "first base", and some people would argue it wasn't even feminism; too hollow, perhaps. But, the truth is, it did give thousands, millions of young girls a simple glimpse into feminism, into being liberated women - and whether or not they interpreted that later into just being a "ladette" or to delve a little deeper - surely this re-branding of feminism does have some positivies: feminism had had such negative connotations (and true, the stereotypes do still exist, sadly), the Spice brand of "Girl Power" was at least represented in a bright, positive, colourful way - as perhaps suitable for something which is, admittedly, somewhat shallow.

But, the "Girl Power" message seemed to cover the following areas of feminism:
1) Sisterhood/Female Solidarity
2) Women speaking up. And loud.
3) Women having fun together.

There wasn't any mention (as far as I'm aware) of more serious issues feminists are concerned about: rape, battery, the pornstitution, trafficking, women being objectified/represented as sex objects/valued only by their sexuality, ie how well they can gratify a man's sexual desires, equality in the workforce, abortion etc. This could possibly be because the target audience was pre-teen.

Maybe the pre-teen audience was why they were called the "Spice Girls" not the "Spice Women". To appeal to young girls, not to infantilise them and therefore then undermine make their messages of "Girl Power". Again, is the lexical choice of "Girl" to appeal to young girls, or even because "Woman Power" isn't as catchy, or to infantilise/demean the message? And, of course, how seriously can a manufactured pop act of 5 young women in crop tops, mini skirts and platform boots be taken as a threat to the patriarchy? Heck, one of them is called "Baby Spice"! It's a bit of fun, light entertainment. Sure the young girls seem to be lapping up the "Girl Power" notion, but hey, give it a few years, and their hormones will be telling them differently, surely! And we'll push more bland boybands on them to dream and sigh about, more girl bands all in the same uniform, preferably something quite sexually explicit.

I'm not going to say that the Spice Girls changed my life. They were, however, a small (admittedly shallow and basic) step into an interest in feminism. Admittedly, when I was younger, I had very confused ideas about feminism and what it was. I mean, I used to think they did burn their bras, although that seemed exciting to me. Now I correct people on this myth. I'm admittedly new to feminism on a level where I can understand it, thanks largely to Ariel Levy for really getting me started and re-igniting the same passion for "Girl Power" as the Spice Girls. But, realistically, the Spice Girls were more a light entertaining bunch of girls whose songs I knew and danced along with all the moves. They were marketed in an incredibily novel, original, exciting way - they each had "personalities" - and their constant cries for "Girl Power" set them apart. But, they're only first base feminism. Real feminism is a lot more empowering, interesting, exciting and real.

Amy's First Angry Rant

2006-12-30T15:41:00.000Z

Looking on Object, the news section ["New Year - New 'No Go Zones' (21.12.06)"] I notice this:

"Pubs, Bars & Student Unions - Bikini Babes
FRONT and other lad's mags have launched 'bikini babe' competitions across UK pubs, bars and even student unions (Loughborough). Female pub goers compete in FRONT bikinis, judged by the male onlookers.
Questions to competitiors include :- 'spit or swallow?'- 'do you take it up the arse?'"

Now, I'm going to have to give myself a few minutes to compose myself before I can articulate anything about this "bikini babe" thing.

Ok. Here goes.
Although there were other cases of disgusting objectification of women mentioned in the article (including a topless carwash & diner in Coventry), this one particularly annoyed me.

The idea of getting women to compete against each other to be crowned the hottest and most desirable according to male objectives is just sick. Making each contestant wear skimpy bikinis while surrounded by fully clothed, possibly drunk males, is just degrading. Is this at all necessary? No. But, of course, there's no rhyme or reason to it, just male leeriness and objectificaton of women to put them in a submissive, passive position to maintain the patriarchy by treating them as sexual objects & therefore keeping them down as second-class citizens. I mean, for fucks sake! Even the questions asked are nothing to do with the woman's personality, intelligence or any ability. Well, any ability other than making a guy cum. And, of course, the questions are about intimate, usually private interactions, and really the questioners have no right to know. The questions are all about what a woman would do to enhance a man's sexual pleasure, not about what she'd want, because it's all about the man's sexual gratification. There's nothing equal about that. There's nothing right about it at all.

And, let's face it. Girls will do this. Even if they're bloody inebriated or not fully willing - ie forced into it by (male) pressure - they'll do it. And why? Because popular culture manipulates and tells women to act in certain ways, to dress and look certain ways, most of which are geared up to fuel male lust and to gratify the sexual demands of men. Of course, not all womyn accept this. But many do, to varying degrees, of course, and it will be some of these girls who will participate in these activities, much like the girls who participate in the disgusting Girls Gone Wild franchise in America. I would go on about the vicious circle which these girls often find themselves, but I think I will just say, instead, that all this hurts women and their position in society, but it's bloody great for the patriarchy, and of course, great for the male spectators, who get to have something live in the flesh rather than a celluloid pornstar to wank over later.

There's a phrase going round in my head, which I read about in Andrea Dworkin's 'Heartbreak: Political Memoirs of A Feminist Militant", where she says she was too poor to afford a badge with one of her favourite Feminist slogans. The slogan?:

Don't suck. Bite.

As It Is Almost New Year's Eve...

2006-12-30T14:43:00.000Z

Now I'm really, really not one to make a big fuss about New Year's Eve. To be honest, I tend to have a "same shit, different year" kinda philosophy. I mean, in all likelihood, it's not as if everything is going to miraculously change between the 11th chime and the first verse of Auld Lang Sine. Although, I guess it is nice to have a little contemplative review and look over the previous year. But, my friends would prefer to go for a piss-up, which is only natural because a lot of people don't share my perspective on New Year's Eve and, Goddess-knows-why, like to make a big hoo-hah out of it. When really, it's treated like a normal weekend-night piss-up. It's just not my thing.

So this year, I'm going to be baby-sitting my second cousins, and possibly their cousin who is no way related to me, and is a quite small baby. I'm not the most maternal of sorts, but hey, 30quid's 30quid. I just hope they sleep peacefully and don't interrupt my viewing of what will most probably be Series 4 of Scrubs on DVD. But of course, it's the season for little children to have bulbous amounts of snot bubbling out of their nostrils and to cough up and spew. Nice. Just dear God, please don't let them have diarrhoea!

This year, like all years before it, has been an assortment of up's and down's for me and for my friends. But, it has also had a few unique moments which have not happened in previous years: my GCSEs - which, apart from my "E" in PE, were great, although I am quite proud of that "E" - leaving my old school, St Andrews, was quite emotional since I'd been there for God knows how long, and starting my new sixth form was different, too. This was the year of Red Hot Chili Peppers at Earl's Court - hell yeah! - and Portugal with Faith, which was a helluva lotta fun. I went round the Baltics with the family, and met some lovely people; Tom, Jo and particularly Talia. Talia is my Manchester mate, and since meeting, she's been to Bedford town of Dreams for the weekend, and I recently stayed round hers in Manchester for a couple of days. So those would be the most monumental and significant events of this year. That and managing to long my birthday out (National Amy Day) for three whole days, which I feel is quite an achievement, and must be bettered for my 18th. O, and I've started learning to drive. In my two lessons I have driven on the wrong side of the road, been nervous of the accelerator, then got so friendly with it I drove in excess of the speeding limit a few times, and drove into a curb. Hell yeah!

But in each year, each month, week, day, there have been millions of moments - some good, bad, in-betweeny - which cannot all be accountable, and some are just nice to keep to yourself, or to share with the closest and most intimate of friends. And since I'm new to this blogging malarky, it would be too long, complicated and even a bit strange, to go into any more specifics about the previous year.

Happy New Year to everyone, whether they're going to spend the New Year's Eve night clubbing, with close friends and family, or anything.

Amy Is Confused/Debut!!

2006-12-29T21:06:00.000Z

I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. I don't even know what compelled me to do this.

And, of course, they make you come up with names for things, and I'm just not good at thinking up original/witty/interesting names, especially not on the spot. I just decided to flick through my iPod, and came up with a song by Death In Vegas featuring Liam Gallagher - Scorpio Rising, and thought ha, well I'm a Scorpio! So, yeah, none of the names here actually have any deep meanings. I hope I can bloody change them when I do think of something!
And I'm sorry to ramble on.

I promise you I will write at least some posts which will have a point to them. Even if their purpose is solely to vent or let off steam.

Maybe, if only to give some sense of purpose to this blog post, I shall write a little about myself.
Well, my name is Amy. I wish it wasn't, and I feel a certain lack of originality in finding another name for myself, even for this thing. *Sigh.* I'm only 17 (about 10 months 'til I can vote!!!) and I'm in lower sixth, doing the following AS levels: German, History, English Language and Sociology. I will most probably drop German at the end of this year because I really, really suck at it.

Like most people I know, I like to listen to music. To put a very, very broad label to the music I listen to, let's call it alternative. But a lot of it is "old school", and stolen from my dad. I owe several other traits to my dad: my sense of humour, my ambition and ego, but thankfully, not my nose. I like to go to local gigs - support the local scene! I watch TV too, mainly Scrubs, Friends, Only Fools & Horses, Blackadder, Gilmore Girls and Nevermind The Buzzcocks. I'm not much of a movie buff, I just watch things which entertain me, whether or not they're any good. I have no way of telling, to be honest.

When I was a kid, I always used to have my head in a book. I would be completely oblivious to the rest of the world, and it was like escapism for me. Then, I kind of didn't have time for reading. That said, recently I have been picking up the books again. Not so much fictional literature, instead I have been getting into feminist works; Backlash by Susan Faludi, Heartbreak - Political Memoirs of a Feminist Militant by Andrea Dworkin, and Female Chauvinist Pigs: Women & The Rise Of Raunch Culture by Ariel Levy. I have some other books which are on my to-read list, mainly books which I received as gifts for Christmas, and a long list of books which I want to get. This is because I've found feminism on an intellectual level, and am beginning to learn more and more about it. I like going on feminist blogspots and yahoo groups and hearing about what contemporary feminists believe.

I know that I have only begun to scratch the surface, it's only the tip of the iceberg. But, wow, what I've read, it's filled me with exhilaration, and an innate desire to help other women, to create a truly equal society no longer ruled by gender. I want to grow, and I believe feminism will help me - and others - grow. I am convinced that feminism is still needed: the battle is not over! I believe that inequalities and attitudes against women are so incredibly subtle, most people do not realise they are there, and this just means it is all the more important that we have feminism.

I don't believe any of the stereotypical representations of feminism. I don't believe that to have feminist beliefs means to not have positive relationships with males. I have male friends, all of whom make me laugh. I just wanted to say all of the above in this, my first post, to make these opinions clear, because they are important to me, and a lot of my future blogs will be about feminism.

Ta-rah for now! (That's not to say I won't post again tonight, but I always feel a desire to write an introductory blog or paragraph like this, and maybe then write another one later in the space of one day or night, as far as I know there are no rules against this practice!)